That empty feeling, when something is missing inside, you would do absolutely anything to fill the gap, that pain that fills it is unbearable and you just want it to go away. The love for her you can’t let go, you want her and he doesn’t want you. It hurt, fuck it hurts, you starve yourself to make yourself busier and more admirable to try to make her want you, and you punish yourself for ruining everything and blame yourself over and over. Even though everyone says it is for the good..I don’t buy that shit. But you do because you can’t see any other reason why.
You tell her you want her, you tell her you love her, but she just doesn’t get it. She doesn’t deal with the fighting, when to me we don’t fight that much. She doesn’t get that we can fix it, that I think she is perfect in every way. I am so in love with her. And she doesn’t want me. She is breaking my heart.